Today is my last day in Tulsa Oklahoma. I'm not going to lie, I've been waiting for this day for an awful long time. However there are plenty of things I like about Oklahoma, and Tulsa especially. I spent a large chunk of my life living here, and I made the transition from childhood to adulthood here as well. But since I'm not a native Oklahoman, I've never had any special attachment to the state. (Also, it's 106 degrees here today.) Consequently, I've spent the past week or so trying to reconcile my very powerful anti-Oklahoma bias with the positive memories I have of this place. I didn't come to any definitive answer, but there is some truth in the saying 'it's not where you are, it's who you're with.' I have been so fortunate to have such good friends around me, especially this past year, which was personally quite challenging. To have my dreams for the future dashed by cold economic reality was a tough experience, but one that I know will continue to be valuable. I only hope that I will be able to make such good new friends as I found here, with as much ease as has happened in the past, when I arrive in California.
I believe no one can or should stay stagnant forever. So while I should maybe be scared or concerned about this move I'm more relieved. I'm relieved to be moving out of my parents home, where I had felt like I had regressed in my relationship with my parents, and had returned to adolescence. (My moving out will be healthier for everyone's relationships.) I'm relieved to have such an amazing opportunity in front of me, and I'm determined to make the most of it. After all, I have plenty riding on this whole grad. school thing! I'm moving on; I feel like I'm finally going in the right direction, and that is a comforting feeling.
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